Please, anyone – Anyone who has already gone through the Pluto on IC/Uranus on Desc. With the bizarre events taking place now that Uranus is in on my ascendant, there isn’t a doubt in my mind that society has been trying to destroy me from nearly day one…and it involves my sexual orientation and gender – a gay male that a devious society is trying to turn into a straight woman to appease their sick notion of “balance”. The only good transit at moment is Neptune trine my MC. Thanks for your stories…here’s mine. Got it?? I sleep a lot but put this down to age as I’ve always been a bit full on. Pluto was in my 7th when all this happened. Where or how does one choose equal house system at Astrodienst – I can’t find it. And on top of that my tr. That was one of his reasons for our breakup, that he is not ready for such a big responsibility of me moving. We were stupid kids…we were going to California and never coming back. (I havent had boyfriend for 8 years, I was just one night stand girl, who didnt want anyone, but now all that is swiped out of me, and in a hard way, if im not letting go of it on my own). All the major conjunctions happening that year fall on my DC and it is also my Saturn opposition that year. Men inherit evil from their mothers so before you go blaming the white man, look closer and see why Pluto hovers over Scorpio. WOW! Events or people can provoke you more easily now. Often I think Pluto changes that come at angles are long-desired changes…. Someone I never thought I’d live without. I didn’t lose my job but it was a really critical time and I ended up as the responsible and guilty person even though I wasn’t and my boyfriend finally passed over my tolerance level so I left. 2 days later, I was fired. So I must have some Mars thing that I should thank for giving me this fight to make it through. I wonder what will happen during Saturn/Pluto/Jupiter conjunct … I am about 8 years from the big final exam of Saturn return. I’m really confused about which one to go with now. Transiting my moon (this transit finished just a month ago). When he rolled over my exact degree, I got married, finished my MBA, and bought my first house. I want to publish a radical book on philosophy, in hopes of public recognition–because I feel that I have some genius ideas–yet, I want to compete in powerlifting at the same time. I even met a person whose life somewhat mirrors mine – someone society has labelled as mentally ill because he was able to see through their gaslighting bullsh!t..a Libra bf of mine who I suspect is a primary culprit of the illusions. Here we see triggers to acute illness, like an inflammation, diseases and even cancer. The table below is easy to interpret, because it provides the exact dates and times when Pluto entered a zodiac sign and remained there till Pluto enters the next sign, with times in UTC (Universal Time Coordinated) - that is same as GMT (Greenwich Mean Time). Obsessions and phobias impact on my life in an extremely debilitating way. The transits of Pluto: three general comments. Saturn is also about to enter his 12th. Plus being a sensitive, I just would not do well in a high traffic environment like a store or fast food place. As it went through the 10th I started a career job, then Neptune squared natal Neptune followed by Pluto square natal Pluto (mid-life crisis)and I wrecked (Pluto) my reputation (10th) by “running off with the Gypsies” A Neptune man. was one of the greatest losses of my life to date. My Mars/MC move from House 10 to 9 and my Pluto moves from House 5 to 4. So yea, I took him back. but I wasn’t running to the boss every time they did it! Pluto to your Venus is a major challenge to your relationship. I moved from the big city of Chicago to the woods of WI into a one room cabin and lived mostly as a hermit. The team mate was 21, I am 56. That one scarred me for life. Best wishes and have a nice weekend, John Henry. Married a family friend. I was born with it squaring my Sun & Moon & Venus; by 6 it crossed my Uranus; by 9 it crossed my IC with Saturn in tow; by 11 it was squaring my Mercury & Mars; between age 13-24 was ‘the trining’, first my Sun, then ASC, Merc & Mars; by 25 Pluto crossed my Neptune by 29 Pluto opposed my Saturn by 32 Pluto opposed my Venus by 36 Pluto crossed my Moon by 38 Pluto opposed my Sun this was followed by what I called ‘my reprieve’ till this year (at 46) it has started crossing my DSC then it will oppose my Merc & Mars as it makes its way thru my 7th house. 2006 I gained a lot of confidence–much more than I’d had for many years. This will all sort itself out. Twice. I got a job at a lumber mill (long, gruelling hours doing the entry-level work). I also remember reading that Mars in the 10th happened a lot in the charts of people who had fathers who were police officers, and my father was a state trooper. that´s a lot to handle!! Don’t ever want to do that again. I had Pluto conjunct my IC in 1987-88, and not much happened. I am referring to Pluto transits over the angles of your chart, where the angles are the same degree as your ascendant. I just am looking forward to all the things this is birthing for me. I’ve always wanted someone to look at my natal chart for me, because it’s very unique. It’s never been this bad, but it has forced me to finally kick it once and for all. Pluto on my MC defined my profession, it was like compltion of the cycle. I have had too much for one lifetime. They knew of his rep and set me up, probably thinking I could handle whatever was gonna come up. When the transit was just about finished…my only confidante, support system and friend during that time died of cancer (also a sag). Pluto has crossed my Nadir opposing my MC twice and I have had no incentive to continue what I usually love to do. This time can be extended if the transit Pluto is making is a multiple of complex one. We teach people how to treat us. I still don’t trust them, but now my distrust is better informed and hatred has crystallized into scorn. A generational Pluto transit is when a group of people are experiencing the transit at the same time. To understand a Pluto transit we need to understand Pluto. I guess that is Pluto and mars ruler. Not only that, I lie dormant for nearly a decade. Confused her attitude. Yet. Sun/Saturn in the 1st with Mercury conjunct from the 12th, Moon/Neptune in the 7th, all sitting on the Asc/Dsc axis. Nothing can shake them loose. My marriage fall apart. Sent 3 times a week. Pluto is conjunct my descendant at 13 Capricorn and I messed up my shoulder. The reason I’m so curious about making that distinction right now is that Pluto just crossed my Midheaven, which falls in my 9th house via Equal. There is an average minimum of 2 years for every Pluto transit. I say not easy but many blessings. If you’d told me what my life would be like now I would have laughed like a loon. The only ones who seem to reach out to me are struggling mothers. I used to eat whatever without concern as far as sugar and whatnot. I think that is objectively true, actually, not just how I felt. With Pluto being linked to obsessions, any suggestions how this could play out? I almost feel I can’t write about this transit yet but I will say about two years ago a positive inner transformation began and has taken hold but I’ve also experienced great loss during this time. My team mate outright lied in order to justify his actions, and said I had told the patient to “shut up and eat his dinner”. But ugh, Pluto in Pisces will be on my Ascendant when I’ll be middle-aged. (I’d be like 96, lol). Yes my ascendant is libra so my second house is ruled by Scorpio. I certainly hope I don’t have to move away for 5 years…. Out of the huts of history’s shame I rise Up from a past that’s rooted in pain I rise I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. Hi pale blue! Also I’ve completely changed my eating habits. Got happy. She clunge to me, she wouldn’t allow me to grow up. I hope it’s more about passion and a new love, because neptune ruler of my seventh, is squaring my natal neptune, currently at home in Pisces and is about to oppose my asc… Help? You only have to watch this for a short time and it will be shown to you and you’ll know it without a doubt. © Copyright 1998-2021 Veraxs Int'l Inc. All rights reserved. He is still young and he lives with his parents, Im 5 years older. Free Online Astrology, Synastry Chart Aspects, Meanings and Interpretations. I feel like I’m channeling Frida Kahlo. ; ) Well, I hope all of us who are being hit by this angle business emerge the better for it. Have had the Outers travelling alongside me my whole life – have never felt I belonged anywhere – this is the second time Pluto’s crossed an Angle ( been in 4th House for a few years now). Got knocked down when I tried everything to fix my marriage, problems with my job, career change, issues with friends, moved several times, got sick due to stress, tried to hide and do nothing…everything backfired. I remember everything going black and then ‘seeing the light’ as they say. When I finally opened up and told my family what had happened and that I needed to move somewhere, and quickly, it was as if they didn’t believe me. My heart goes out to all who come to that point, and to you, too. Ok so during that time, my mom was living with a “friend” and her kids, so there were 5 of us. It … I read and lurk here lots but wanted to join in today . Many of my friends just fell away. At the time I was also having my Saturn Return and t.Neptune was square my Sun–and creating a Grand Fixed Cross in my chart. I had to live underground for close to ten years. She and I had a difficult relationship. I’m looking forward to the upcoming shitshow! I’m worried of a death or divorce. I broke up with my then live in boyfriend when pluto crossed my ascendant. That’s what I noticed, too. I’m pretty frustrated because I’ve been wanting to work in my chosen profession in the healing arts but I’ve been raising my small children full time and dealing with the intense debilitating Lyme infection I’ve had since I was 8. I was 5 1/2- 6 years old. I have a stellium in the first house with Pluto, Saturn, mercury, and sun so I’m not sure if this was affected too. And Chiron sextile Chiron. Descendant transit – but not totally sure? Pluto over DSC! Transit Pluto in 1st House. It seems like Pluto is intent on destroying my old life in order to birth a new one. You may initiate important contracts with great support and cooperation, and agreements made now will have positive results. Transitterende Pluto bringer store, livsændrende forandringer, for godt eller ondt, afhængigt af de andre transitterende planeter og livsmønstrene i fødselshoroskopet. I never acted out again. Most people do use Placidus houses at this time and yes, most people focus on transits to the natal chart. I´m finding difficult to find a home and feeling at home, both. Wow, well, yes, it sounds like alot going on for your Mom and for you. She is still with me. 1964: pluto conjunct ascendant, started school at 5, went well. You feel a strong sense of ambition and drive to achieve and if you’ve been reluctant to charge ahead into life, you’ll feel compelled to do it now. But I figure I was the one who won because he was such a creep. I feel pressured to approach things with greater sensitivity to subtle dynamics. In between I do have help from Pluto trine Midpoint Sun/Moon n I’m a Leo. I feel like I survived the odds. I´m terrified with the conjunction Saturn-Pluto that will be hitting my IC soon. Working since 3 weeks ago as a food delivery but not making even the minimum salary per day despite of working more than 8 hours daily. If I have to go back east for a funeral, I will have to steel myself in a big way. I would live a reply. Is it “ok” to change house systems like that? Your new health habits should do you well when Neptune advances to the 6th. Within the last 2 years. It won’t cross my 10th house cusp for quite some time. Jupiter and Saturn have been with Pluto so I also got pregnant and other stuff is going down that isn’t great, but I thought that was funny the same thing is happening to me. hmmm…pluto crossed my ascendent when I was 9? But Uranus, ruler of natal 5th transiting Desc & 7th house – I was hoping for maybe a rain to end a VERY long dry spell. IC at 11 degrees? HI Shannon wow your resilience is amazing! My friends and family don’t really understand my distance and are no help at all. That’s crazy!!! I’ve had two Pluto transits to my angles. Humour and gratitude seem to have been the major traits that help people through difficult times that seem tragic at the time but on reflection are the turning points in our lives for change. Got divorced. My parents divorced about the time Pluto had just gone over my DSC (5deg) and was about to hit n.Uranus (8deg), also opposing Venus/Mars/Chiron on the ASC. S... Shop Compatibility ReportsMidara’s Relationship Review, Birthday Report Package Deluxe Transit Report – 1 Year Get A Natal Chart ReportProgressed Chart Report Deluxe Asteroids Report Get A Solar Return Report Get A Lunar Return Report Child Natal Report 1 Year Transit Report – Outer Planets, Find Your Soulmate Saturn Transit the 12th House Using Astrology To Get What You Want. I am super worried. Pluto has made its first pass over my DSC. I guess that was that. When pluto crossed my asc. I’m sure there will be more coming up as Pluto transits the 12th degree. I had major pelvic surgery when Pluto was within a few minutes of my IC (14 Libra) — a bilateral pelvic osteotomy, which basically involved the surgeon taking a piece out of my right pelvis and implanting it (with a pin) on my left. Defeat me now. In my 1st – it was the formidable years, but I had to deal with my family and certain abuses and look at my parents as if they were people…I grew up quickly and saw suffering everywhere in people. In this future, everyone will have paid the price and suffered from Pluto’s savage desire for payback. I left an abusive relationship with my sons father. This is just the beginning and already – I left my job to join my crazy husband in his effort to study abroad, but later changed his mind. Pluto […] Remember too This too will passsp relax and enjoy and do what makes you feel good in your heart<3, Thnx. But then you referred to Pluto crossing your Midheaven. Double whammy! But weirdly since ‘vomit night’ I feel like true power comes from within, and this weird time is allowing me to transform inside out. For ascendant, that would have been the year I was 12 and our family moved to a new school district where I had to more or less figure out who I was in a new environment. The day I left Pluto was at zero degrees in my 4th (where I have a stellium in Scorpio) and almost sq my natal Saturn. Trust/hope good Transits! We naturally and quickly became close and within sort period of time and started to think about how we could be together after my studies ends here. It just feels like that most of the time. Rekha, you will be coming out of what is known as an approximate five year dark period, everybody goes through at some stage, whilst Saturn transits the 12th and 1st houses! Meditation has been extremely helpful. Great transformation is available to us if we can find the courage to embrace these challenges, but it seems that fighting them only postpones the inevitable. Thanks, Bob – It’s interesting to cross-reference the P;uto transits with natal Pluto planets… (This is probably a no-brainer for astrologers – I am a novice, obviously.) I had my first sinus operation which was pretty horrible. I’d say it crossing my Moon was far more insightful, but I was older and more ‘self-aware’. What happened? If you have Pluto at IC that means that Neptune is probably close to, or has just passed, your 6th house cusp. It is one of the indicators of divorce and break up unless your chart has a very healthy Venus. (My first return was a breeze…) Let go let go and read between the lines..keep open to the message. But so far OK. tPluto conj Asc Scorpio was worst time in my life so ican cope with an opposition (fingers crossed ), Phoenix you are not alone, So many people I know who are very creative and hardworking have totally lost initiative, inspiration and motivation and somany are sleeping more than they have ever done. and my grandfather died. At school I was given a nickname (my real name was deemed too foreign by the teachers) and I was bullied horribly by the other girls (because of my accent, my home-made clothes, my looks). I have stuff on my angles in my chart – it’s pretty angular. I don’t even miss them. And, I don’t loose a minutes worth of sleep over it. Pretty cook-book for the transit. Shortly after that my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer. I was happy to do it. Having said that people experiencing a Pluto transit to the Ascendant generally feel very poorly. So the whole thing was pretty violent). I thanked God my Step dad came to get me. Does my sassiness upset you? Another was around 1977 but it wasn’t on an angle. One sister drove 100 miles just to say your an awful person. Ultimately, I dropped out of grad school (for the second time..) and moved halfway across the USA to be with a man. Thank you for clearing that up for me. Pluto transit is also squaring my ascendant and sun. Ummm. Last 12 months life has changed so much and I have felt a massive sense of lose however I am rebuilding and life day by day is getting better as long as I don’t fight the changes. It should pass once the planets move some. I left with nothing except some clothing and papers. The first to my Asc when I was 14/15. We ran into a McDonalds. 1. I am just now getting it finished and will be selling. I thought if I ever did such a thing I would be in torment and overwhelming pain. My childhood was almost entirely shaped by Pluto’s destruction. We have the drive, dedication and focus to really grab the reigns, motivate, but it cannot be forced etc. I have thought on commenting on previous posts here and there, but this one, was SCREAMING at me… . Today when she speaks of it, it breaks my heart because she was devastated and scared to death thinking I was abducted and could be dead. @elsa thank you so much for just saying that I worry so... Perhaps in contrast to the current mood out there, I'm ... @mirandagarrett1992 I would quit reading that stuff. By the time it left my 7th I told my husband I was done and we lost (8th house) the farm we had moved on to. My only child switched schools 5 times. I am so nervous I have Pluto conjunct my IC starting Jan 2014 it’s already squaring Uranus on my DC and now Jupiter (and in my chart) Mars is teaming up on my MC (where my natal Mars is in conjunct). Once this is done and Pluto leaves Capricorn, I won’t have a Pluto transit till 2065 (when I’ll be 93) my Pluto Opposition, followed by Pluto squaring my Moon, then squaring my Sun and if I live to be 114, it will cross my MC. Great, just great. When I was a child, my adopted father used to call me Pluto as a nick name! I’m open to something different just in certain environments. We have just finished 5 oppositions by Pluto and just before new year also Saturn opposition.That was my second Saturn opposition to my sun. There was a certain ethnic group that was threatening me, and nothing I could do to appease them worked. conch that’s how i understand pluto transits work: grinding back and forth over the angle until you really really get things burnt down :/ it’s not a day or a month but a year or so of being caught in the oscillations…. I thought I could just brush it under the rug. Its going to take a miracle for me to ever get involved in that again. Then about 2 weeks later my now boyfriend asked me out on our first date. He saved me. I am sorry to hear that Lou. I normally use Placidus bc it resonates more, so is it possible that for this transit Equal is more accurate? Mishka lovely to see you so accepting and positive about your circumstances. But I am SURE if you change your appearance (1st house) it impacts your public standing (10th house). . Thanks Amy for reassuring me. I think I’m past my Pluto conj. i konjunktion, kvadrat eller i opposition til din Sol, Måne, anden personlig planet eller en af akserne er du sandsynligvis inde i en transformationsperiode. I feel that way now, only without the hope of a new place and life, and without the money to make that happen. In fact it was totally denied to me and made me question who was my dad? You can also learn much by just doing your Solar chart using 21 Cancer as Asc on equal houses. I was going to be beaten within an inch of my life. I don’t know what the hell to do. I don’t think I will have to move, thank God, as I love the place I live in now. I moved continent (literally) and still moving. It’s not like I haven’t tried getting a job, it just hasn’t come to fruition. I can say I am better for it. They had no idea where I was or even if I was dead or alive. I was not mature enough to face the rape until the last couple years. The pressure is intense and yet the learning is like nothing else could have done it for me. In other words our partnerships have been hard work, draining? So all the other stuff makes me weary. I think I need a hug already. We all have a Midheaven that is irrespective of the degree of the Ascendant. Maybe if I had resisted it would have been traumatic? Got a home. While Pluto was crossing my MC we left a stifling situation in a country we’d been in 9 years, moved somewhere very challenging and foreign for three months and then settled into our country of origin. my Moon. I don’t have that “heaviness” in my head or heart. That incident changed the relationship my mother and I had forever. However in the equal house system, it won’t hit my MC for 18 more degrees, so maybe I still have it coming? Some nights my hands and arms would be so worn out that I could barely shift my 5-speed to drive home. I hope the Pluto conjunct my MC will prompt me to regain the personal power in my career. Squaring ASC. I lost a lot — a business, financial suffering, etc. I have felt stalked despite there are no words and no “physical” evidence since 2018, because I discovered in 2017, that some people are listening my conversations and reading everything I do through my phone and they react to my conversations. All you can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other and you’ll get through it in the end….whatever happens during it….and you Will feel you just can’t do it at times…but it does all pass – and you’ll wonder how you survived it…..but you will…one way or another…. When Pluto squares Neptune is a transit that usually happens at a later stage in your life where big changes are bound to happen. Even though I can say I had a meaningful life as child, my life in the late years has become much meaningless and without sense of purpose… stagnant, nowhere to go. I have had lesson after lesson after lesson. The exact degrees were the month I lost my beloved Maternal Grandmother, who was my primary resource for mothering in my early years. Since 2018 (November) No incomes but instead, I am relying on my husband (which it is difficult to me. Saturn was also opposed my moon at the same time. Equals strong in body but probably used by other people. )and making it’s conjunction with Saturn there – exact to 7 minutes of arc. I don’t know if I did this, or Pluto did it, but it needed to be done years ago. I feel no freedom despite I am at my own home. He died in ’85-ish when both Saturn & Pluto were transiting Scorpio (aspecting any combo of the 5 planets I have there). Želite kontrolirati sve oko sebe. I got married, sold my home and pretty much everything that I owned, and moved to Hawaii. I had a bad accident in 2004 that disfigured my face,blinded my right eye and turned my world upside down for quite sometime with some effects still lingering. når transit Pluto eller Solar Arc Pluto, er i spænding, dvs. I got a triple whammy because Pluto retrograded back and forth over my IC. Scared to death is the least. It actually really started when Pluto entered Capricorn, subtle yet building… mainly 4th house issues. But it also affects the 4th and 10th (via practice but also common sense). Well, Pluto will be crossing our angles on the third week I January! Pluto opposite Ascendant transit is sometimes called Pluto conjunct Descendant transit. 8) just in case… Uranus natal is in 12th house, ruler of my 4th house. 9h pisces moon, 20°53 & Neptune is stationed Retrograde 20°57. Not even now can see anything worth from so much suffering. Definitely having a change of career occuring. I have never felt so lonely in my whole lonely life. !but i came back lol, I’ve been having tPluto tSaturn in 4th opp Mars Pluto 10th. Meaning that I have technically already had my Pluto conj. Then after 2008, I separated, joined the military, went to war, almost got killed, I was raped by a brother in arms, conceived a child and now I have two sons. Who has issues! I was there in 2006-7 when I left my entire life behind, sold everything I owned and moved from New England to California alone with no job. All of that had to happen for me to be aware of my strength. My wires got crossed growing up. I have to admit I look much different than I did three years ago as it made it’s way through my first house. Thanks, Rob. Pluto was on my MC late 2003/early 2004. The end of 2016 I lost my dog who I dearly loved, followed by me getting severely sick in early 2017 from mold exposure at work, drastically effecting my eyes and my entire body so bad I had to quit work with out a back up plan. UGH! Pluto has also crossed my ascendant in Capricorn. I’ve already had a premonition and the streets will be filled with apocalyptic violence, mostly composed of young-ish white females ripping each other to shreds, but not those of today. The others were power players or just plain seedy. I definitely feel like what I went to school for (graphic design) is not in my long term plan. I am really feeling the Saturn. We are moving. For my sanity I need a behind the scenes job or a low key job. Relate this to the sign that is on your first house at birth, and your Pluto sign at birth. The second Pluto transit was to my IC during 2000/2001; Pluto kept retrograding around that period. Most importantly, it helps with interpretation because the fact of the matter is, anything that affects the 1st house affects the 7th (most astrologers accept this). This was the reason why they hurt me. Being an only child and single, I feel like an orphan and am truly devastated. Oh my! Since 2009, Pluto has transited my Pluto, Mars, Sun and is currently joining my North Node. I consider both, Christa. I lost my matenal grandmother, grandfather, sister, step grandmother, two male friends. Pluto transits are about letting go of things that are holding us back from deep and meaningful experiences. They said I had “attitude”. pluto is now opp my venus in cancer 10th house, (near MC). I know change is coming, good & bad, as that train has already started rolling. I know that I do not allow myself outbursts or tantrums; somehow I am accused of it anyway, by the very people who themselves throw tantrums. It’s just the going through it that can be challenging. Oh my gosh Melissa! Not long after that the trine to my IC began. That was the final call to become a psychotherapist and to take less visited ways of development. We are also waiting for the answer of immigration to become a permanent resident. The only thing that survived was the bedding on my air mattress! It felt strange when groups of my friends would come to see me there, because some of them were clearly uncomfortable with seeing all the kids in wheelchairs and “banana carts” when I’d long since gotten past that. Now I realize she was just fishing for information. Ihre seelischen Grundlagen werden in dieser Zeit auf intensive Weise berührt. Just discovered our home is ( probably) riddled with Dry Rot…..talk about a Literal Example of Pluto in the 4th!! i started working with a big star in the electronic music genre and now hes trying to control me (pluto in 4th, opp venus in 10th). Capricorn Backbone – “Believe” In Astrology? All is not lost so I just go day by day. It did not end well. I have been trying to quit smoking pot for years – and with some good success! I feel so much for your friend. Very different patterns of relating. I felt ashamed to tell people. conjunctions |oppositions |squares |trines |sextiles |houses. Er steht für Werden und Vergehen. I have a feeling they are pluto types as well. Using Placidus houses, Pluto crossed my Descendant 3 times, due to retrograde motion. Pluto will be coming up to conjunct my MC at 22 Capricorn in February 2019. Am looking forward to spending a week in a friends’ forest cabin at the end of this month with no phone or inet access just myself, walking boots and a few sewing projects of my own. In terms of job, I was not jobless, but every job I had so far was a challenge in terms of authority and boss relationship. Hier also die etwas gekürzte und übersetzte Fassung – herzlichen […] I wish it would come true…I don´t know if I will be able to stand the same situation again being older, What I found difficult was not to find a home, but to find a place where I can feel home, a feeling of home. I had no choice. I was never in trouble ever. I had been threatening divorce for a while. Sold my car. What little I have left in this world, shall be taken away from me, to be replaced with something intangible, that won’t pay the rent or buy me food. In fact, for the first time in my life I was sick of this game. No respect. Solar Return, progressions and solar arc seem to join forces just to show me how hard life is. Uranus in 7th? We met exactly 3 years ago, today. He spent all of our savings and left us homeless, broke, and jobless. I think now it might be emotional changes after so many harder transits in the past. I look at my behavior carefully, more than most people. Shoulders falling down like teardrops, Weakened by my soulful cries?